contradiction prevails

Is a human image of contradiction.I feel so.I might be too. Conversing with one of my friends I felt that talking about liberty, modernity, advancement are all farce. Though the matter which we discussed was a serious one. During our conversation some other factors i.e regionalism, castism came in the way.In course of our talking he said that sometimes I would repent because of being . I frankly accept that I am from Bengali origin . On the hand I am born and bred up in Bihar and honest to say I never feel odd about it . The friend who pinched me is not a common man for me. I often shared my feelings and thoughts with him and I will not hesitate to share even now. He is upset because his daughter has married a Bengali chap. It is natural. But the matter of concern is that being a friend he could not recognize me,what sort of man I am. It is regrettable for me. It might be that I am not up to the mark. Either I was unable to know him or he took me for granted

mesmerizing

One hundred rupees, a trifle amount which makes no importance in the era of billions a trillions. But having it in my hand I was mesmerized with delight. On the basis of my past several experiences I was convinced that will get less than I worth. With that buck in my hand I conscience started hammering me asking just ONE question that how is it possible. The fact is which I could not share with my family because she always tries to come out from the utopia and stand on the real world. It was a fact that I bought a lottery ticket and got hundred rupees. Though it was a no profit no loss deal , but the feeling incessantly thumped my brain and finally I could not resist to pen it